I would like to tell you the pain would stop.
I would like to wipe the tears that fall.
I would like to tell you your heart will heal.
But there is nothing to make the pain dual.
That little angel here for too short of a time
Left a mark in your heart and memories in your mind
Tomorrow, the next day, year after years.
I would like to tell you it will stop just to be kind.
But the pain is there not quite as sharp all the time
eventually like all wounds it will not be as strong
turning the tears into laughter, a little at a time
does not make you less loving nor make you wrong.
We all have one life to live.
whether we suffer through
Live vicariously, make their life mean more
Live for your little one too.
A Moment to think
God I miss my baby
10 years she has been dead
I slowly forget the memories.
They are fading from my head.
My heart still feels broken.
My wounds - they do not heal
My child no longer living
A lifetime she does not feel.
It was not fair to take her
A life she will not live.
I want to have her back
What cost would I have to give?
No one really speaks of her
It is if no one cares.
If no one mentions my baby
Maybe no pain will be there?
Place aside all the logic and Reason
For A moment just lie to me
Please tell me my baby is not gone forever
Forever, is too long for this to be.
This is the poem that I wrote for Reagan's 9 anniversary of her Funeral...
Warmth and comfort I remember that night.
I thought you were cold when we turned off the light.
I added a blanket to cover you up.
And then in the morning- you did not wake up.
I picked you up and listened for a beat
When holding you close, I did not feel heat.
I breathed a breath into your lungs
Thinking your gone and completely too young
The ambulance came to try their best
Unfortunately for us, you had already left.
We went to the hospital waiting for you
After a while they told us they were through
You had left us, cold and sad
Seeing you on that table made me very mad
The day was gone with no future in sight
All alone on that first teary night.
God, you took our baby away,
I think of her often, if not every day
We move forward, missing you dear
Remembering eventually we will have you near.
A Shimmer of sun light
A shimmer of sun light on an over cast day
A crack in the clouds that lead you away.
Snow and sleet sorrow we feel
Saying good bye, hoping time will heel.
Tomorrow, the next day, and even the near year
Gave me nothing but anger and fear.
Five years, seven and then ten,
I finally realize that time does not mend
Vacancy and heart ache are stowed at bay
Anger and bitterness are here to stay.
Side by side step by step
Through the path we go
Up and down through this life
The distance we'll never know
Adventures, disasters, Emotions
Everything we pass
Change of heart we never know
Our love forever last
Together is our safety net
A crutch if you may
We stand up for each other
Keeping the storms at bay
There are snags,
Bad days do try their best
But our love for each other
guides us through each mess
Our paths hit cross roads
We make a plan
We go through our life
Holding each other’s hands